Dark Murky Waters Ahead

I know having a kidney disease is a lot of work. I have a lot of shit on my plate right now and having the time to do it, with the rest I need is very hard. I have a job that has just been taken to days. I have been working swings. 4 to 12. I just started this new shift but I guess I'm having a hard time dealing with the new schedule. I feel over whelmed and not smart enough to handle the day shift. And to make it worst, the big wigs are not in the building this week. so it will be worst next week. I always wanted days to help me get a better understanding of the company and how things work better. But everyday something suppose to happen and not really anything has actually happened. It has been a quiet week. I feel that when something does happen here I won't be able to help or to be given the chance to help because they don't think I can handle it. I want to help real bad, but the monkey on my shoulder is getting me to rethink about this and wishing I was working swings again. I hope the people I work for has faith in myself to fix whatever is broken when I sure don't...